i've sunken into a strange world this past month. a world that not even i am familiar with. My emotions have been in a bind, and i've felt lost. I walk down my high school's hallways, feeling more out of place then when i'm in the most crowded part of a city. All the people around me carry on with their lives, feeling the same emotions and the same lifestyle as every other day. I, i walk into school everyday feeling like it's my first day alive. i find myself listening to every little sound, and paying attention to every moving detail. I touch every surface in front of me. I taste every new food i've never seen before. I pay attention to the music playing from someone's headphones across the class from me, that are turned up a bit too loud. Sometimes i even think i forget how to move my feet, because my brain is so over loaded with new discoveries. I sit here, feeling like i'm at life's starting line.

But the question that always flutters my mind is, am i alone? Do other people feel this as well? what DO other people feel? Did they have a rough morning, full of tears? Did their dog run away, or their mom didn't tell them she loved them? Did their favorite pair of jeans get ruined in the wash, or did their goldfish die? What about the kids with smiles on their faces. Did they wake up to a "good morning" text from the one they love? Did they find $10 in their pocket that they don't remember leaving there? Or is it all an act? are they as unhappy as those less fortunate?

My mind always wonders how other people see the world. What they feel, what they see, what their life is like. What's so different about their life, compared to mine. Somedays I just wish i could transport into someone's body and see. I want to be able to read someone's mind, and know exactly what's going on in their head. Is there something they're hiding, something i can help with? or something that could be life changing?

I'll probably never know the truth, but i say, there isn't a single moment that passes where i don't wonder. The single moment that i think i've got things figured out, i'm always proven wrong. I get flung back to the beginning, not knowing about anything. I get flung back to feeling like i'm at,
Life's Starting Line.