So sorry I've neglected you lately.....
My life has been so off track recently, it's almost got me feeling like i'm going completely and mentally insane. I feel like a spider that's never able to stop spinning her web; For I need to survive. School's been hell and back all the time now. I'm passing by the days with no one i'm able to talk to about anything worth importance, and it's really bringing me down in a pissy mood. My grades are slowly going down, but I'm able to maintain above a 3.0 gpa, which is all I really need. I'm trying to pull my head out of my butt though and get back on track, but it's been rather difficult. Thank God the holidays are coming up, they always put me in a better mood.


Speaking of Holidays, recently i've been looking through old photos for a project towards my grandmother's christmas present. We decided to buy her one of those picture frames that scans through thousands of images like a slideshow, and I've been busy picking out pictures to put on it for her. But anyways - that's besides the point. So i've been going through hundreds and hundreds of my baby pictures up to pictures i just took a month ago. And i came across an envelope of pictures that i took with my photography camera. It was the first time i'd used that camera, and i just took amateur photos. But there were a few very cute ones, as shown above. And i thought of how fun it would be to start taking more pictures. Yeah, yeah. So cliche. Everyone takes photography pictures now-a-days, right? I don't care, it's still fun. It makes others see beauty in a way that they've never seen it before. I think the world has so many things that carry beauty - and SHOULD be captured on a photograph.


Anyways, new topic. Mysteriously, all ten of my fingers have become cut, and bloody. Gross and painful, i almost want to put a bandaid on each one so they can heal. But how annoying would that be? Having a bandaid on every finger.... I probably couldn't even hold a pencil right. Then again, my bandaids are bright colors :) So that might be fun, haha.


You know what i find funny? I'm trying to move forward with my life, and lately I've been getting interrupted with showings from my past. Ex Lovers, Old friends, and all these reminders of things that weren't so great keep popping into my life out of no where. And it's got me thinking. Why? Does God not want me to move on with my life? Does he want me to live in the past forever? I highly doubt that, but I just don't understand why these things keep happening. Who knows, as of now I'm just rambling. So, maybe i better stop for now.


:) xoxoxo.