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Miracle, or just plain Myth.

Monday, January 25, 2010, 4:08 PM

Is it just me? Or has anyone else noticed the beautiful sunrises we've had recently. Almost every morning as i'm walking to school, the sky is pinker then the cheeks of an embarassed child. and i love it. Sunrises make my mind wild. They make my heart happy. And they make my soul beautiful. It puts a good start to even the worst mornings. I've taken a couple pictures on my cell phone (as shown above) and they've turned out magnificent. I can't wait to develop the film in my photography camera. i bet there's some beautiful shots on there. For as crappy as the Northwest weather has been, it's been made up with the morning skys.

Speaking of skys, this morning something amazing happened. Last night, i wanted God to give me a sign. I told him lastnight as i was in bed wrapping my blankets around myself, that he should let me know how i do on my finals. I've been stressing about them for weeks now. I told him that if i come to school in the morning and the sky is black and ugly, that it means i will fail my final. And if the sky had even a hint of pink in it, I'd pass. It was raining all night, so i figured that was my sign. Walking into school, i looked around to see an ugly black sky. Feeling upset and worried, i continued walking to school. But then, i looked over my shoulder. There was a single small cloud in the sky that glowed a beautiful pastel pink. A smile leaped on my face. He listened to me, he really did. And i took my final, feeling pretty good about it. Obviously i know i'm not going to get an A, but i know i'm not going to fail. I feel much closer to God today. I know he listened.

I have a math final tomorrow, and it's going to be easy compared to my science final today. Math is my better subject. Tonight, i'd only been home from school about an hour, and my aunt calls. My little cousin needs help with her homework. I spent the last three hours helping her. I feel bad for her sometimes, because she just doesn't understand it. But i don't blame her. I even had a hard time with some of her math.

Cupid struck me right in my back....again. I find myself having another one of my "first grade crushes" on a boy in my classes. :) He's not typically the definition of gorgeous, actually most people would agree he is quite the opposite. But i think he's adorable. I'm not getting involved though. I'm not looking for a relationship or any love connection right now. I said i wasn't at New years, and i'm sticking to my word. He's cute, and it's fun to stare at him from afar, but as of now nothing is going to happen. Sometimes cupid, sometimes. You hit me at the wrong times.

So an update on my weight loss. So far, i've been eating much better. I'm literally having at least one salad everyday. And the sugar intake has lessened alot. I still eat sugars, just nothing like i used to. I'm actually eating things like yogurt, spinach, and bananas. Things i would have NEVER put in my mouth before i started this. I've felt better, much better in fact. I've had more energy and i've actually been happier. It's really changed how i feel. But on the days that i overlapse back, and eat fast food or something unhealthy, i get a massive headache and start feeling tired. So i make sure to stick to eating better. As for the actual weight loss, it hasn't improved as much as i'd like it to. But starting next week, i'll be enrolling in gym class, so i'm hoping the extra exercise will shed off the pounds. If not, i've gotta do something different because i'm not getting to where i want to be.

So far the new year has been great. We'll see what else it has in store for me.
xoxoxox.

Labels: cupid, finals, sunset, weight loss